Nutrisystems

Below it what I have had on my Nutrisystem site for the reasons and motivations as to why I need and want to lose weight. It might help some of you and it might be comedy for some of you (if it's comedy you probably aren't one of my GOOD friends hehe). Either way here it is if you are interested. Some the stuff I know you are going to think "Oh Tracey" about but it's true I did feel this way and I have found on NS I am not the only person who feels this way. But I will tell you with 30 lbs down some of these feelings have gone away or are fading.

Here's what's on my NS site!
I have always had weight issues, but I have been battling my weight since I was a teen. I joined Nutrisystem when I was 15 and lost to my goal by the time I was 16. It was the best time of my life weight wise. I kept it off until I was about 18 but then I started college and slowly started gaining back. I then went into a yo-yo of dieting with different programs each time gaining back more than I had lost. Finally here I am 15 years later at 31 with 2 kids and carrying an extra person around with me daily. It’s time to get rid of the monkey on my back. :o)

One of my turning point moments was when not long ago I was going to fill up the sandbox with sand for my girls and as I was carrying that very heavy (really too heavy) 60lb bag of sand; that it occurred to me that I am carrying around 2 of those daily that I shouldn't. I thought no wonder my back hurts, I‘m tried and cranky. This is it I need to get rid of a bag of sand. So here I am 2 months after that getting started.

I also had another turning point moment when I was turned down for an increase in life insurance. Even though I am perfectly healthy my weight kicked me out. That hurt bad!!!

This is a turning point in my life. I have 2 girls and we are pretty sure we are finished building our family. I have been forced in to a job change due to outsourcing and have started a new job. Interviewing and starting a new job was hard for me because I have low self-esteem when it comes to my looks because of my weight. Plus being over-weight I was in a comfort zone at my old job and now I was going to have to go out there and wow people, meet new people, and make new friends. That’s a hard thing to do for someone who’s over-weight and ashamed of how they look. I’d really rather not leave the house at all much less meet new people.

I have found my weight to be crippling in a way. Although I go a lot, I don’t want to go places for fear I will see someone from the past and they will think “Wow! She got fat”. I also feel ashamed of myself and bad for my family. When I look in the mirror I don’t like who I see and I kind of feel bad for everyone who has to look at me. I know all of this is in my head. My friends and family are great and they see past what I can’t.

My motivation is taking my kids to Disney World next year (we hope). No I will not be at my goal weight. I know that takes time, but I know I will be a smaller me and have more energy. We went to Silver Dollar City last November and there were a couple rides I came close to not fitting on. I do not want that to happen at Disney World.